Friday, October 31, 2008
i'm tired of walking around with an ankle like that. all the walking is making it more swollen so now my feet looks pretty disgusting. went for psychology today and saw the TK guy. but even with him there doesn't make the lecture more interesting because the lecturer was so boring until i nearly fell asleep. tort pbl was even worse, had to stand up and write and i bet i look dumb in front of her because my english not A1 A2. went home and so coincidental took the same bus with TK guy but he like don't even know who i am. having second thoughts now.
sharonhoped.
10:59 PM
Thursday, October 30, 2008
how can people get so fake and indecisive. it just seem very dumb and childish to me. but if that's what you want i really wish i did not know you at all. i also have no intention to know any attention seekers. maybe i'm too picky with people or maybe these people just don't deserve me being nice to them. either way i had enough and i want nothing to do with these people anymore.
spent my evening with jocelyn and the nice looking restaurant does not serve good food at all. only the ice cream was nice because they didn't make the ice cream themselves. and they called me ms and called jocelyn mdm. haha. high school musical 3 would have been better if my ankle wasn't aching because it was too cold in the cinema. i want 3 years in school to be over quickly. before that i can get some sleep before seeing ms regina tomorrow.
sharonhoped.
11:35 PM
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
i did not skip psychology lecture i just decided to postpone it to friday. every visit to the doctor seems more and more painful. i want to run around before sunday. if not how to go into the sea? why jeevan's blog got more people viewing? so unfair. i'm really getting pissed at people who look at me then look at my ankle. what's so nice about it anyway? what if i had to wear a cast? would people start giving me donations for taxi fare? i love cds class even though it's tomorrow.
sharonhoped.
10:15 PM
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
"little incidents reveal people's true self." quoted from sharon
anyway i really took my own sweet time in walking to the bustop and going to school in the morning. my reasons for dreading school has changed and my ankle has nothing to do with it. had lessons blah blah blah... took out the bandage at night and it's still swollen. it doesn't hurt that much but i think i'm going to have problems when my ankle fully recovers. i totally forgot how to walk properly. i think i need physiotherapy.
sharonhoped.
9:28 PM
Monday, October 27, 2008
went back to see the doctor again to change medicine on my ankle. he freakin cracked my ankle again and still poked needles on my ankle because it was swollen. but at least it feels much better now but i hope he don't do the same thing when i go back on wednesday again. and the medicine he gave me taste even worse than the previous one. yuck. i love it when my hair grows back quick enough for me to not look stupid.
sharonhoped.
8:10 PM
Sunday, October 26, 2008
i'm like handicapped now that i can't walk. can't even flex or point my leg, but i badly want to go out tomorrow. my last run was at thursday and i feel myself getting fatter not running and sweating. i guess i got to go school earlier now that i walk so slowly.
sharonhoped.
10:10 PM
Saturday, October 25, 2008
was supposed to wake up at 6am but i didn't get up when my alarm went off. so i slept until 9 which is the time that i'm supposed to be in school for training. went with the hope of running but end up hurting my ankle again. this time the bone went out of place as according to the doctor and i screamed real loud when she put my ankle in place. now my leg is like a big dumpling now. i can't even walk around at home. and i lost weight again even though i didn't run enough for this whole week. when i recover i must run to make up for lost time and lose more weight.
sharonhoped.
9:46 PM
i really don't see anything funny in me wearing specs to school. and there is only one lecture today at 2pm. i really dread school on friday, start late and end late. after the NE forum i had a hard time with my craving for subway and starbucks but i still manage to not eat. tomorrow must run.
sharonhoped.
12:16 AM
Thursday, October 23, 2008
still didn't run much today but stretching after exercising really feels good and less painful. finally the girl bases can out hold the guy bases at liberty. but it only happened once. and i love my psychology class.
sharonhoped.
11:32 PM
Wednesday, October 22, 2008
i was feeling so excited for psychology and i woke up in time and everything but still walked in late for lecture... after that went running but my stamina still need lots of work. and i'm finally starting to lose my muscle weight so i'm going to increase the running and decrease the eating. i really got to study for subjects like lsm and lcomm and not screw up like last sem because sem 1.2 seems really fierce. leonard got chased out today because he was late. meaning 1L05 can't be late for tutorials. seems like i can't slack as much now. )= ran with pearl an after lsm and i don't like running in the gym because i feel like a fish but i want the treadmill. must force myself to run more tomorrow.
sharonhoped.
9:32 PM
next time must come home earlier so i can more sleep because the next day i have psychology. heard that it's tough but i'm still looking forward to it. i hope i can score higher than the average grade. tomorrow i'm going to run like crazy and hopefully lose weight before 2009. did extension with geok ghee liberty but i didn't felt that i did a good job because she fell so many times. tried filing my notes and reading stuff but gave up at tort and lcomm. the reading stuff are simply too much for me to take. thanks hui xian for getting me kissable lips that taste sweet and smells like chocolate. and i'm tired!
sharonhoped.
12:42 AM
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
first day of school haven't been so bad after all. but still, it's only the first day, who knows what will happen after that. i got a strong feeling the projects are coming in after one week. and i'm so tired after training i wonder when i will get the time to study. and i have no intention of doing so badly like sem 1. i still use my arm and back during training, so lousy.
sharonhoped.
12:39 AM
Sunday, October 19, 2008
had auditions after service then rushed for class 101 so i still have no idea about what the results are but i think i got no chances. talk about embarrassement, i wonder what did the people sitting behind were thinking. must be 'her voice so not nice still want audition'. )= i want a job because my mum has no intention of supporting me for a bag. finished up the exercises that i had to do after i got home. still can't find any flip cart paper so i hope i won't get throw out of class tomorrow. got to force myself to study no matter i like it or not.
sharonhoped.
7:08 PM
Saturday, October 18, 2008
made breakfast and slacked the whole day until evening before going to run. i hope i can run on a daily basis when school starts. and i'm still not prepared for tomorrow. die
sharonhoped.
11:01 PM
Friday, October 17, 2008
a part of me really dread sunday. what can i do to not die terribly. and i'm still lagging behind school even though it has not started yet. i don't want to get thrown out of lesson on monday. i'm afraid of her.
sharonhoped.
11:07 PM
Thursday, October 16, 2008
i can remember how i use to love going to school and study. i even love the way i mug for exams. but when i saw my timetable and just one tutor that i'm really really afraid of can ruin my whole sem 1.2. and the things that i got to prepare for even before school starts is really crazy. 3 hours of her every week is too bad. what can i say or do? nothing. saw the engine school orientation and the people were like so funny. enthu people infront and emo people behind. haha
sharonhoped.
11:59 PM
Tuesday, October 14, 2008
somehow i got more energy for training today. got to learn twist up and pop but now i got trembling hands. i even love the bruise i got because it look as though i got into a fight. continue thinking anorexic. think skinny and hopefully i will make it.
sharonhoped.
11:36 PM
Monday, October 13, 2008
finally got back to training. but i'm still lousy at being a base. must really shed my weight like crazy. and i want to learn how to cycle.
sharonhoped.
11:47 PM
Sunday, October 12, 2008
i ran 5km today and i did not lose a single gram. maybe i should be anorexic and stop eating but continue training and running. and i found out from the net how to get skinny.
Anorexia is latest trend that is spreading across the world, it originated from Ethiopia. Anorexia is not a fucking disease, but it is a lifestyle. It is something that you should embrace and cherish if you want to be one of the beautiful people. By reading this article, you are on your way on becoming beautiful. So I welcome to the world of the thin and beautiful… that is right I am talking about you FATTY!!!!
How to be an anorexic
Step one
Look at yourself in the mirror fatty and be sick with all the fats and excess meat that is taken over your body. Keep telling yourself you are fat and ugly. Ask your friends, but when they answer that you are not, they are merely telling a white lie just to make you feel better. The fact is you are fat and ugly, and anorexic is the cure to the fucking disease of being fat and ugly.
Step two
Hands off the food Fatty! Fuck up your relationship with Food. Make sure you get sick by the mere mentioned about eating, kitchens, cutlery, refrigerators, restaurants and another that has got to do with food. Eating is for fat people and beautiful people don’t eat. You do wanna be beautiful right?
Step three
Invert pain and punishment on your fat ass for even thinking about food or craving it. The best way is to pluck out some pubic hair every time you think about eating; if you have none, resort to using a rubber band and flick it on your nipples or ear lobe every time you think of food. No pain No gain baby!
Step Four
Hey, you are not just fat but silly, being an anorexic doesn’t mean you don’t eat at all; you do eat but you eat at a minimum. And the only food source of a true anorexic is air. Be sure to acquire the art of preparing, cooking and serving air for all your meals. But don’t overdo it okie? You don’t want air to ruin your diet right?
Master the above steps and you will be on your way on becoming one of the beautiful people. Remember you are fat and ugly, food is evil and every time when I person tells you that you are too thin and you should be eating, that person either mocking you or trying to make you fatter so that she gets all the lime light. Use this picture on the left as your target, happy trying!!!
hopefully i can become something like that.
maybe not to that extreme but if i can be somewhere me and them i would be happy enough.
sharonhoped.
8:14 PM
Saturday, October 11, 2008
i hate it when my mum is right most of the time. especially when she is talking about things in my room. and i can't believe i stayed up all night till 5 am just to finish with a book. and somehow girlish books make me feel sleepy. am i finally reading better stuff now? and i'm not going to die tomorrow, maybe next week instead.
sharonhoped.
9:56 PM
finally posted the sentosa pictures. i'm so going to die on sunday. seriously regretted filling the form so now i'm going to embarrassed myself.
sharonhoped.
1:02 AM
Thursday, October 9, 2008
tired to exercise a little at home because my mum just refuses to see me out the door and off to training. when next week comes i'm going for training no matter what. unless my mum does something like take my house keys or something. i know i should not think about hating people and getting angry over small stuff but you, are someone i really really do not like and you are petty. no one forces me to webcam ok.
sharonhoped.
11:03 PM
Sunday, October 5, 2008
went to saturday's extra training and my cartwheel isn't any better. and i still tried a backtuck. got to admit i really suck at not leaning forward when squatting down. all the not jumping high enough, never tuck enough, never close my legs and NEVER WEAR SHOES got me two injured ankles. stayed over at steph's house so can go run for hope tomorrow. no bus no cab early in morning so we were late and i get to be in area D. met a sick guy who ask steph and i to date him. crazy asshole.
sharonhoped.
6:28 PM
Thursday, October 2, 2008
i am not going to lay a scissors blade on my hair ever again. i always end up looking stupid and my hair takes forever to grow back. training was fun today learn about walk over and back walk. but i still can't cartwheel. )=
sharonhoped.
11:20 PM
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
i think if i chopped off my calf i would be able to do a standard push up properly. i got two options, lose weight or lift weights. it's children's day and i don't get any presents. sulks
sharonhoped.
11:17 PM
certain things i really had it but i just don't know how to tell. it may be small little things but yet it shows how different people are being treated. i finally get to shoulder stand and not shoulder stood for once. though it's still very lousy but at least i get to stand. justin is the best.
sharonhoped.
12:12 AM
