Monday, June 30, 2008
ob early in the morning really can make me doze off right in my seat. even during my break time i couldn't get much studying done. ms tay is such a cool teacher. she sure know how to do things to surprise us once in a while. with the amount that i studied i just went in and tried answering the questions. i can ensure myself with confidence that i will fail this lsm test. today's csa was fun. no more excel and funny funny formulas. started with the webpage stuff but i almost couldn't catch up with her lesson. i'm glad that i made a right decision by going to bedok otherwise i might regret forever. whatever that makes you happy.
sharonhoped.
8:48 PM
i have a very strong feeling that my mum is quite sick of my skin peeling off. i know i have itchy hands that can't resist peeling it but when i sleep the skin will also just drop off by itself. so actually i'm just making the peeling faster. the colour of my bruise is out and it's about the same size as the previous one. i got no idea how it came about when i didn't land hard on my knee during dance. went to church today because there will be no service today due to parents' lunch and issac said that i look like a dummy with my new hair. i have no idea what funny stuff justin and boss will come up with tomorrow. hope that everything will turn out fine tomorrow with good weather and enough time to study and hopefully no funny comments.
sharonhoped.
12:44 AM
Friday, June 27, 2008
yesterday was like a boring day. but then csa lecture suddenly became interesting. maybe it's because the lecturer went through the slides quite quickly and i have to copy real fast. after that got abandon but quite a few people so i got to go home alone then come back for cheer practice. today is not much of a difference. i seriously think i'm going to fail my lcomm. i can't even find and understand the differences between all the parts of a case. following that will be a 5 hour break which i used to finish up my economics project. at one point in time i just couldn't continue writing and began to feel all the stress weighing down on me. despite all the work that i put in eventually my article writing was a failure. i just got a 'out of point' from mr vincent. which means i got to do everything all over again and this time i better do it right. dance start at 8 meaning that i have to go home and come out again. i think even travelling is making me tired. dance wasn't that bad, at least i had to chance to recall the steps that were taught. but i think that we are really going at a slow pace and performance is one month's time away. i love the doorgift from dance. my bruises-big and nice.
i guess it's really kind of silly for me to think that some friends would really go all the way to help you. and it took me real long to realise that how long you know that person is not of any importance. because anytime that person might just decide not to be there when you need help the most. the good thing is that when you get abandon someone of nice character will just appear and be there for you. at least i know who can really be called friends. forget secondary school 'friends' who don't bother about you. knowing a person for a long period of time is not at all important, the character of the person is. i love my jie jie!
a picture i took when i was really bored
sharonhoped.
11:34 PM
Thursday, June 26, 2008
got back my ob test result like first thing in the afternoon and i nearly fainted when i saw my mcq results. not because i got full marks but because i thought that i failed with single digit. but then again 21.5/30 wasn't good anyway. it's hard being one of the dumb ones in class. after that is lcomm!! i thought my results sure cannot make it. but when she said that the next one is also an A then followed by 2613J i stunned for a second before realising that is mine. 16/20 is also not very good. because this is the listening test and my written paper will fail and pull this 16/20 down. danced from 6 to 10 and i'm seriously not tired. just that i'm still suffering from tuesday's training. suddenly ryan added pushups to the crutches that we normally do. totally can't catch up with dance today. must practice more. i survived from the tootness of my hair today. but still i'm going to bring a cap just in case anything goes wrong. hopefully after one more term i will survive in dance and be able to do everything properly. anyways today dance suddenly have quite a few new comers because tpde had a second audition. now the place is like damn crowded. one of them is someone that i didn't like since long long ago until now. don't understand of all things why must she join dance. can't she be cca-less? must focus more on dance instead of other unimportant person. just found out today that there is one girl from tpde modern who is also in law year one. i don't even know her name. must find out tomorrow. please let some people find that dance is too tough and quit so that there will be more space for the rest.
sharonhoped.
12:29 AM
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
my oral presentation for tort-nuisance really suck until cannot suck. it's like everyone have clear facts and can speak perfectly well and not nervous like me. no wonder my class people only can't understand what i'm saying. anyways a comment has certainly made me very depress so i decided to cut my hair. however after cutting i became more depressed because my new hairstyle really make me look like a guy. seems like i now have to chance to wear the cap that ann bought for me years ago. my face is peeling like as if i have some kind of skin disease and my back is peeling too. but i can cover my back not my face. at least charyl and cheng yee notice my hair instead of my face unlike the guys. maybe that's because they were sitting further away. learn the blazers cheer today and i can say that it made us very high. i seriously cannot forget the part when nicolette just kicked her shoe off. the cheer people today which is also the shoulder sit people just realised that most of us have bangs. the i can remember clearly that the seniors said that whoever that did not come in the right attire and proper shoes cannot do stunts. i believe because of biasness so people who did not have proper stuff still can do stunts. what is this. so stupid and unfair to people who really came in proper stuff and have the right attitude. maybe this was the reason to why i was damn moody after training. there's nothing i can do if they only keep calling the same people to try new things and not let unwanted people like me try.
a picture of px taking a video of shermeine presenting
sharonhoped.
12:23 AM
Monday, June 23, 2008
yeah school has started. i'm so not longing forward to it. seems like everyone is rushing today to hand in the csa project. i woke up earlier than before so that i will reach school before 9 but somehow i still reach school at 9am. i can't stand lecturers that always crack lame joke. it's so not funny. but interesting pictures sure can make me wake up and stay alert. no apel today which means 3 hours break for us. jupiter sure have slow service. the moment i decided i was full then my fries came. seriously lsm lecture was a very sleepy lecture. after lsm was 3 hours of csa tutorial. after more than 10 mintues of waiting we found out that norshida was on mc which means that there will be make up lesson. which also means that i have to wait for ghim hong for 2 hours. at first he is supposed to wait for me for 1 hour ended up with me waiting for him for 2 hours. i'm so not going to do retarded things again. the medicine is really very effective. this morning my tongue is fine but the saliva thing is damn disgusting. really very sleepy and i have dance and cheer tomorrow. someday i might faint from doing too much activities.
sharonhoped.
9:33 PM
Sunday, June 22, 2008
forgot to change my bag to a smaller one so that i can carry it around instead of putting all the weight on my shoulders. i can say that i didn't have a fun time with my bag. after service and cell then i'm off to school of pool. after all the lessons then i know that it's called school of pool. this week is the start of tournment and i lost to jamie 2-1 i won sandy 2-0 and i lost to germanine 1-0. argh!! i can't play against justin next next next week. jamie was damn pro she won 2 rounds against the rest of the girls. the only reason why i won her once is because she potted the black ball in. justin won againist all the three guys i think and kay han also won all guys except for justin. after my dinner went to see doctor to consult about my tongue then found out that the saliva thing got blocked and infected. i hate medicine especially antibiotic. and it's not funny that i can't swallow medicine.
sharonhoped.
9:57 PM
Saturday, June 21, 2008
i changed my appointment date to like next next week because my back really hurts and this is making me lazy to even go out. back to slacking at home again which means i got to do my short page intro thing for csa tomorrow. went out with my mum at late noon and had ramen for dinner. not bad but very expensive. need to think of how to carry my back for one week. or maybe i should try going home with ghim hong. i regretted tanning. anyways i saw someone who was from hs in the train today. and i think she changed a lot. from a quiet girl to an ah lian look. she even had a boyfriend that is shorter than her, much much older than her and i think that the boyfriend is a smoker. they are like so disgusting in public. goodness!
sharonhoped.
10:24 PM
Friday, June 20, 2008
i didn't get enough sleep the night before and i still got to wake up real early this morning to reach harbourfront mrt at 9am. but in the end more than a handful of them only reached at 9.30am. after the breakfast at mac then it's off to sentosa. had fun there despite the couple of injuries i got. the first time i did a shoulderstand i think it was successful. but when i got down i landed on my ankle and it hurts. the first time i did a basket toss i landed straight on my butt and totally below sea level. at least i can shoulder sit gary now. i love the battles we have even though i kept losing. besides injuries i really got a bad bad burnt from all the tanning. it only sunburnt don't hurt, how nice would it be. at least the lines are nice. hopefully i can get to wear sleeveless the whole week at least. and terence, i'm so not a B!
sharonhoped.
10:52 PM
Thursday, June 19, 2008
went back to hs to take my stuff and i seriously have no idea why ms wong kept using 'was' for me. does she mean that i'm not nice now. forget it. really felt bad when i didn't go for dance and ended up pooling instead. at least i managed to win ann. but waiting at the bustop opposite hougang green for 101 is stupid because that bustop only have 325!! rushed back to school for cheer. sad that i got give up cheer performance for vibes. why can't i have both. i hate opportunity cost.
sharonhoped.
11:16 PM
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
i really committed myself today and i finally finish my excel for csa and the really brief but detailed powerpoint for lsm. the main reason to why i seriously sat down and do work is because school is starting soon and i can't slack anymore. another reason is somehow i can't get the internet to work so might as well finish up my work. i'm going to have big trouble brewing when school starts. i don't mind being busy all the time but i hate it when things clash. anyways praise him for letting me have a bit of internet enjoyment after a hard day's work.
sharonhoped.
10:43 PM
woke up early in the morning just to meet up for lsm project but only discussed a little. in the end got to waste time going back home and coming back to school because the discussion ended really early. dance is cool and yet crappish at the same time because i love dancing but i just couldn't catch up. i really want to join vibes performance but practice fails on every tuesday. how?? even though i always get bruises after dance i still love dancing including the bruises. cheer wasn't that bad but i still think that i suck at even being a base. then how can i be a flyer.
sharonhoped.
12:46 AM
Monday, June 16, 2008
finally finished reading my nuisance thing and do what i'm supposed to do for lsm presentation. i think the biggest thing that motivated me is because daniel plans to meet tomorrow to do the power point slides. at least i still did my work. suddenly got a message and tomorrow i got dance so i got to cancel my pool and have cca the whole day. this is so tiring.
sharonhoped.
10:26 PM
Sunday, June 15, 2008
what a waste i can't go for church camp with the rest. think they are enjoying themselves in malaysia while i'm stuck here in singapore. no youth no pool means i got to go home early and i ended up slacking at home and growing fatter. tomorrow really got to force myself to finish up my project then keep watching videos after that.
sharonhoped.
11:14 PM
finally started on a little bit of project but i ended up stuck at vlookup. making myself busy with work seems better than staying at home and trying to control yourself to not talk about someone. keeping your own emotions and trying to be cheerful and postive all the time is really a very tiring task. always wanting to encourage someone and yet feel discouraged. i really had enough of this. you still can say that i only think about myself. did you not see my effort or you only have eyes for that special someone. i just want to give up and use studies and cca to keep myself busy. i just want to be too busy to even think about you.
sharonhoped.
12:25 AM
Friday, June 13, 2008
woke up really early just to prepare to go out and end up only alvin is early. i have no idea how ann thought about meeting at dohby ghaut mrt station. while waiting went to play with toys with alvin until he is afraid of me because i'm too childish. when ann finally arrived we went for breakfast at subway. if only ann is earlier then i can get the breakfast meal. waiting time again then went to get a cake for jaclyn which i think rotted by the time we reach sentosa. finally got a chance to get burnt when playing volleyball and frisbee. we also noticed a group of gays wearing skinnies to the beach. wanted to take their picture and post it here but they walked to fast. more tanning time until our bathing time at 6. spent more money eating at vivo but i had to leave early in case my mum scold again. damn tiring.
the weird one is alvin gn
the shorter one is ann (=
sharonhoped.
10:37 PM
walked around sub courts and family courts today i think family courts looks nicer like a hospital and sub courts looks mysterious. and i think i know where the secret passage is. the hearing of the shoplifting case was cool too. it was a pity i couldn't stay till the end because i need to rush off for cheer. after the training today i now have two flyers to massage for me. how nice. but i'm seriously not going to eat with jyss people anymore. still must wait for the couple. crap. hear that i got a letter from tp telling me to pay school fees and i didn't apply for the cpf thing. i got my mum pissed but even if i apply the thing now i still can't use it now. i also got pissed by some 4e4 people just because of the sentosa gathering. i seriously feel that leonard is retarded or something.
sharonhoped.
12:58 AM
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
i still didn't manage to get any work done even though i woke up pretty early today. today is the first day of my dance training and i can feel that my standard really went down from bad to worse. tomorrow have to go to sub courts again and fill in the blanks which means i can't do my project. it's a pity that i missed the movie trip again because i don't have the funds and time to do so. oh well. hope i can get a murder case tomorrow.
sharonhoped.
11:36 PM
Tuesday, June 10, 2008
eww! blisters that are one cm in diameter and half a cm high and filled with water is disgusting. after i burst all my blisters it started to fill itchy so it ended up disturbing my sleep. somehow i got the motivation to clear a little of my table stuff but it still looks messy to me. miss training for two weeks due to term test but now i missed training. being a female base is tough. maybe i'm weak just like what haziq said that's why i'm a female base not a flyer. since i'm now officially a base might as well train like crazy to be strong and stable so my flyer will not fall. but being a base feels like the unwanted group. there's bigger trouble brewing with a new coach and training days might switch to wednesday and another day. i don't want to choose between cheer and dance. on the way back it just rained like crazy luckily i have a brother to bring an umbrella for me. it was really cold and the water unstick my plaster and my blisters hurt like hell. so glad to reach home.
All the way!
sharonhoped.
11:43 PM
Monday, June 9, 2008
today: court visit was fun! to sub courts thanks for your present of 9 blisters. i love you so much until i don't think i will willingly go and visit you anymore. if only there is a murder case hearing going on. i would rush there immediately. oh ya, me and 6 other girls became the accused today. being the accused is fun. thanks kay han. if not for you i would not rush to clementi just to play, pay and get owned in pool by you and justin. but at least i won kay han twice and won justin once. maybe i'm getting better.
yesterday: 'woke' up at 2 and got up to bathe in school. went back to psping again. when the event started i started to feel sleepy too. halfway through the thing i walked back to find a toilet and i got two complains. stupid helpdesk call also never pick up. the food their suck too. luckily i went with some hougang gang people to serangoon to eat. seriously when i took a nap in the bus the vision in my mind is psp game and i can feel myself holding the phone and my fingers moving. fast forward to the moment i lie down on my bed. it was around 6 to 7pm then my mum came home at don't know what time and woke me up to eat my dinner i can remember i ate blurly and i went back to sleep again and woke up at 6.30 the next morning.
pearl an han lin me su hui geok ghee rooney
rearrange the names yourself
shh. don't wake favian terence
bryan and kelwin up
yesterday yesterday: went to bugis at 3 the went to school for stayover. should have brought my shorts so that i can train a little over there. thanks mark for stretching my legs until i cried and scream like nobody's business. tried to sleep a little but i ended up playing psp or closing my eyes and forcing myself to sleep.
sharonhoped.
9:52 PM
Friday, June 6, 2008
why everytime i want to do something simple like change my blogskin it would just end up weird. it makes me sick of blogging. neopets game is really addictive and it's a pity i only can play each game 3 times a day. i offically can say that my holiday have already started and i better start on my project before my holiday end. i really want to work because i need the money but i don't have the time. nobody ask me to be greedy anyway. join 2 cca and 3 days of practice. i can't work on sundays and friday i have outing so hopefully they allow me to work on monday and saturday. if only my dad is some big boss. dream on sharon!
sharonhoped.
10:29 PM
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
crap! i think i can't get full marks for econs mcq even though certain questions were straight forward. overall the paper is much better than lcomm's paper but i can't focus on studying for ob's paper. my life feels so crappy and i just don't feel like studying. forcing myself to study simply can't get the points into my head. somehow all these just feels like my fault and i seriously need to change. but i guess that something is just not right and even if i change you will still treat me the way you are treating me now. i think that it would be better to just put all the blame on myself then being angry with you. but i'm really sick of checking my phone every few minutes after sending the message. can't this be settled quick rather than leave me hanging around. i have no idea what's going on in my head now.
sharonhoped.
10:16 PM
Tuesday, June 3, 2008
i certainly had fun after lcomm test at jocelyn's chalet even though i'm going to fail my test. i love every part of it from jocelyn feeding me to squeezing jocelyn to a corner when we were sleeping. i even love getting sick after being under the sun and soaking in wild wild wet for so long.
ps:i really felt heartbroken when you said you couldn't. i know your studies are important but you have no idea how much i need you to be beside me at that point of time. i'm sorry for keeping so many things from you but i don't want to be a burden and affect your studies. afterall i'm not some vip anyways.
sharonhoped.
7:06 PM
Sunday, June 1, 2008
as usual i just love sundays. i think june is my month for suntanning. but i think i can die with 1 week for exams and 2 weeks of hoilday. i have no idea how to tahan three weeks with no school. no doubt i will promise that i will try my best to concentrate but there will be times when i just feel like emoing. i don't even feel happy studying or playing neopets. please let my test be easy so that i can enjoy myself tomorrow.
sharonhoped.
10:48 PM
