really tired to study today but just got distracted by so many other things. at least i started but i spent more time watching dvd and i started a new neopet account. i'm starting to feel young again but i really feel that some games were actually quite fun. but force myself to study tomorrow and not on the computer so i won't get distracted.

sharonhoped.
11:22 PM

i hate bad and unlucky days like this. firstly i got to answer more than 1 mcq and i still got to present the answer for economics. please remember number 18 and stop calling it. crap, i think i'm going to fail the listening test today. i see everyone writing non stop and my points are so little. i hate my life. who do some people get lifes that don't have problems like mine. should i just give up or pretend not to bother? anyway i already decided what to do. i know it's very selfish but i don't wish to affect your friendship. i find it hard to be heartless also. if someone need to do this, why not me. afterall i already did it for 17 years.

sharonhoped.
12:16 AM

finally started to connect with macroecons after today's lecture about revision. had lunch with whole class and thanks to wasi i finally know where is nepal. i also know that wasi is actually a singaporean citizen. i went for csa lecture ok. i feel so bad cheating the teacher about the lecture activity thing. went home and out to study again and i couldn't stop myself from borrowing teenage books about love and stupid problems. tomorrow i don't have any lessons (= but i have a listening test for lcomm )= and there is no subtitles for the video! double )=

sharonhoped.
11:42 PM

i think the whole day i only like the gossip part but couldn't gossip much because the facts weren't clear at all. finally got the pictures from geok ghee but i still haven't got from charyl. i want training. i'm getting fat. )=

me and charyl

close your eyes and wish(s)

blazers1

blazers2

blazers3

blazer4

blazers5

geok ghee and me

bryan gary mark
geok ghee me charyl

gary bryan geok ghee mark me melvin

sharonhoped.
11:04 PM

i like birthdays and i love my birthday. thought ms tay really wanted to scold me just for being late. thanks guys for letting me know that at least there are people who remembered me. lunch at bistro walk was great also but too filling and the soup of the day seriously is not nice at all. after that went all the way to np to look for ann and i didn't get present from her. how sad. to think that i sat so long in the bus just to go there. wasted $30 to take a cab back to school for training as agreed with geok ghee and i felt so cheated when cheng yee took a cake out. i rushed all the way because i was afraid of punishment and scoldings from ken. i was like sorrying like crazy. after that went back to hougang and got another cake. my goodness! i'm sick of cake.

cake from classmates

my coke float. it's nice

partially mine too

my lunch!

calamari rings

disgusting soup of the day

blazers cake

me mark and 1/2 nicholette

1/2 bryan me and mark

the birthday girl(s)

3 guys emoing because we walked too slowly

i'm trying to take a picture of myself and mark's arm decide to join in

michelle me mark and bryan

mark is laming

he trying to block the rest from coming out

ken bully me and made me carry his bag until i hunchback

decided to pity me and my back is fine again

took charyl's board and use it as my own

bryan force me drink ice lemon tea

then bryan force gary drink weird drink

han lin and me

so sorry but i don't know your name

me and su hui

ronney han lin and me

my 3rd cake

yay! it's not chocolate so it's not that fattening

my dinner from putien

sharonhoped.
12:13 AM

more than half my day has been ruined by people. was only slightly late for OB lecture and lsm lecture sure is scary. the notes i handed up is like crap and no link because i forgot to rewrite and make it look nice before handing it up. csa test is like so stressing. really got a headache before and after the test. but luckily i pass. really must study everyday and not only the night before a test. training is cancelled tomorrow but i still want to go training. wonder if anyone will remember what day is it tomorrow. highly doubt that anyone will remember.
I'm allergic to you and you(s) ruined my today and hopefully not tomorrow.

sharonhoped.
10:17 PM

today is larry's birthday but couldn't go to his chalet because i got church to attend to. really demoralised by justin during lunch. am i really that ugly? no right? i still think i'm better looking than justin. won germaine during pool because she potted the black ball. not because i really have the skills. time to do homework and study for quizes.

my birthday brownie from polar puffs and cakes

present from wallet shop

yay i got a new purse

sharonhoped.
8:20 PM

school on saturdays should be ban! at least it's a make up lesson for OB not CSA or even worse CSA lab. after lecture went to bugis for appointment and was late for an hour. anyways was really hungry so i was looking forward to dinner and due to my greedyness i ordered more than i can eat. finally finished my powerpoint slides ad i hope that norshida will not reject it or something. i certainly had fun playing with philemon's laptop.

just felt like looking at myself when i was alone in the lift.

sharonhoped.
9:36 PM

Lcomm's phone call today was seriously very funny. couldn't use any internet in school today. my laptop just suck. finally convinced my dad and said that my work is more important than working. i really need outings and tanning to motivate me to continue working. wonder if my class will remember my birthday. kind of sad to see them celebrate other classmates birthday and not bothering about mine.

sharonhoped.
11:21 PM

economics lecture ended at 10.30 which is sort of cool. completed part of the csa group project but i haven't started on the sides. at least cheer practice isn't so tough today but i still can't do push ups properly. thanks to mark i finally know that my leg can actually stretch all the way. but i forgot to take pictures of it. must wait until tuesday. only did a nice nice stunt today after so many tries. after that couldn't fly anymore because larry suddenly said that flyers without tights cannot do stunts. )= anyways i now must fit practices and homework into 24 hours per day.

sharonhoped.
11:50 PM

finally not late for tutorials because i left house 1 hour and 15 minutes before 12 noon. my stomach is really aching and ice cream looks disgusting to me now. i think that is very abnormal for me. tests are finally catching up with me and will be here very soon. really hate myself for not getting enough sleep. only got myself to blame for tense shoulders. at least i managed to complete a bit of my work.

sharonhoped.
11:37 PM

i made it through LSM again as i really do not understand what is going on. looks like i got to have self revision again. left my stuff with ghim hong and went all the way back to hougang have a haircut. i hate daoer's face. i remembered to take the form for student elections from SAA but i learnt that you have to run elections and do speeches stuff to make people vote for you. and the people applying will be juniors and seniors not freshie like me. so i think i will try to be a sub-com in BSC first. nearly cried at today's training. but somehow i managed to go through everything. sort of forced myself to do guy push up on the track somemore. did plank on the tracks too. madness. i think there will be blueblacks on my elbows when i wake up later. if i can get blueblack on my palm i think i will get them too. from now onwards in front of gary i have to eat healthy food if not he will say that i'm fat again.

sharonhoped.
12:23 AM

sort of wasted my whole day again but at least i did OB and econs work. before i went out to meet the rest at tampiness there is a really funny sms conversation between me and byran. this is how it goes.
me:u got go mediacorp hor?
byran:have but in tampines mall now
me:wa why so early?
byran:eating earthquake
me:wa lau. nv jio me
byran:i smsed u wat
me:nv
byran:sian its in my drafts
me:bastard leh
byran:but the fact its in my drafts meant that i got tot of asking u wat
me:next time use call la
byran:ok la sorry lor i don't know what u doing ma
me:i dun care you owe me ice cream
byran:ok la don't sad
anyways after the whole thing i got influenced by jasmine and started taking pictures too. when to eat at tampines mall's mac and only reached home at 12. so sorry for making you worried but i still have to do my work. from now on i try to make it a point not to be lazy and do my work before hand so i can sleep early from now onwards.

mark jie jie rocks!

i forgot his name but it's hl

two chinese dancers-me and su hui

i don't know his name but he is hl's friend

jasmine the really tall girl

me and gary and i have no idea what mark is doing

sharonhoped.
12:39 AM

feels weird not going to church today. not as if i skipped church, it's just 'fasr-forwarded' to yesterday. was supposed to do projects and tutorials today but ended up dvding with my laptop the whole day. since i can't force myself to study in the day i got to force myself to study at night. and that obviously means less sleeping time. only got myself to blame because nobody asked me not to study in the day. i know i'm supposed to study everyday after school after my 'promise' to everyone who attended 'doing well in studies' at church yesterday. if sleeping less can get me in the top 10% i will do it. but i'm not going to study now. later.

sharonhoped.
9:13 PM

sorry sam for making you wait so long at the interchange today. i think it's time for me to control myself and not use computer before i go out. i already arrived so late and we walked one big round before getting to blocks 405 and 406. i'm proud to be in 406 because we are more orgainized! (= anyways the whole day has been great even though i'm tired and forgot that my mum is not working on monday even though i know that it is a public hoilday. at least she now knows that i studied too hard until i'm like that now. i still couldn't resist the chocolate fondue at buffet dinner today even with justin saying that chocolate is fattening and i'm fat already. who cares? eat chocolate first excerise later. thanks to cousin in law for sending me home and giving me the chance to interact with my two nephews who totally insulted my intellience. two pool pros said that i look innocent. beat that justin. =P

sharonhoped.
11:39 PM

i didn't woke up late but it was the bus that arrived late. end up i was late for 11 minutes for Lcomm but wasn't absent. (= i think i'm starting to love Lcomm and the early dismissal. i think we were dismissed at 10.15 when the actual dismissal timing is 12. even though i was really hungry i went with my csa group people to discuss the project thing for 20 minutes and played cards for an hours. wanted to ask stanley to help me get a balloon from a booth outside the library but in the end i gave up because i know that he would help me. anyways had lunch at ITAS and i have no idea why garfield like lasgana. it taste funny. sat under the sun with the intention to suntan sort of didn't work. i said i wanted to go to the toilet(which i did) and also walked around and spotted bryan. the first thing that came into my mind is to ask him to help me get balloons. i have a strong feeling that he thinks that i'm crazy. of course i got my way and got an orange balloon then i happily walked back. i made a mistake of only tying one knot and at 3 pm i turned and my balloon isn't attached to my laptop casing at all. i thought for a while when i felt that something was missing before i knew that my balloon was gone. actually they tried telling me that it flew away but i was listening to music and didn't know that they were talking to me. when i reached home then i realised that me sitting under the sun did help me tan a little. but there is a difference in colour thanks to my t shirt! went home and did my OB project again. school is so boring.

sharonhoped.
11:01 PM

i don't even have the intention to use the computer but because of the projects i have to do i don't really have a choice. i think i finally understand macroecons a little so i sort of have to go back and revise by myself. i think quite a number did not turn up for CSA lecture but i won't think about skipping lessons even though it's a little boring. we are finally going to finish one part of OB project because i think i dragged the whole group down because whatever i suggested was not useful at all. took a cab home with ghim hong because if i wait for the bus i think i would be late for practice and that is something i want to avoid. in the end i was still late for about 5 minutes and practice was like so tiring. should have gone straight home instead of going for prata supper with the rest. finally finished my Lcomm but i think after packing up and stuff i will be able to sleep 10 to 20 mintues later.

michelle is damn strong. i must train harder to be like her.

sharonhoped.
1:11 AM

my arms and shoulders are totally aching from cheer practice. i think i strained my leg when i'm cartwheeling yesterday. rained like nobody's business and i left house late again and i can't afford another absent in the attendance so i took a cab to school. such a waste of money but it's better than two absents in within two weeks and it's the same tutorial. Lcomm is just confusing and i have nothing to say about it. how can henna be cancelled even though there are many classes doing the same thing? now i can't draw on people's hand. )= i love talking out loud in front of others and they don't have a clue about it. haha(s). anyways went to find ghim hong ans it's sort of a mistake again but whatever. tell them to take bus 8 but they don't want to so we waited for more than half an hour for dumb dumb bus 23. it's kind of late and i'm still here blabbering away instead of doing my OB project. if not shermeine will scold me tomorrow. ivan has been such a 'nice' sister by not telling me his relationship thing. thanks! i have been saying weird words like cutted and putted since monday. it sounds funny at times but i think my english is deproving very rapidly. and my brother just told me that xiao qiang is in my room. eww!
things i have to do before i can sleep in peace:
stop msning
stop talking to ivan and nag to him about pointing
stop smsing so much
do OB project
take out contact lenses

sharonhoped.
9:32 PM

seriously wasted lots of time on deciding what to wear. end up my dressing still wasn't very nice compared to others. i think i'm beginning to hate poly because of the clothes thing. only had LSM tutorial today and my group which consist of wasi jaz ash and me had the correct answer for the presentation but the points given to us was the lowest. the conversations like brain nepal and mt everest in the group was just plain funny. completed a little on OB project after school and px's english is so chim until i had to read his passage a few times before understanding what he is talking about. stay in the library by myself because my usual 'tueday date' wasn't in school today. and he didn't even tell me. all the push ups in cheerleading is really breaking my arms. most of the team people abandoned me when i asked them to join the seniors for dinner because nicholas didn't call me for lunch when i saw him in the library! and he didn't come for dinner too. congrats to hendra for touching girl's hair for the first time. (=

sharonhoped.
1:06 AM

i have no idea how to be happy when the night before you discover that certain people that you thought were your friends were actually talking behind your back. and to think i was touched by what they did in the past when i was lost and alone. at least i now know how they are like but i don't know i still can trust anyone else. i know OB is interesting but i just can't stay awake. i don't know how i can forget to bring my handphone pouch which has my thumbdrive attached to it so i can't print my LSM notes but luckily there's free access labs and ghim hong. had a small HS gathering after school and went to hougang mall's LJS. it's so late but i still haven't started on my tutourial, i want no scoldings. i love and hate ghim hong at the same time. he's nice but mean!

sharonhoped.
9:00 PM

even though i went out of house later i still wasn't late for service. (= didn't really bother to do my homework so i guess i'm back to being a last minute student. pool was very retarded today. i still couldn't do a screwback and during the mini game against germaine i totally couldn't apply what i have learnt to that game. on the way back when i was in the life i was totally insulted by one small boy. a bunch of them were playing badminton and i think they were heading home and in the lift one of them use the racket to hit my butt! i was so scolded until i couldn't think of how to scold him because when i reached home i sort of had a perfect speech to stun him. even if he didn't did it on purpose, he didn't apologize but kept on laughing with his friends. i hate monday not only because the time table for tomorrow is long or because i'm tired and never did my work but because i know all the dumb dumb stuff are going to happen to me all over again.

sharonhoped.
9:39 PM

woke up really early in the morning but not that early enough to reach school at 9. the whole orientation was fun even though we didn't win at the night performance thing. we had a weird group member called mei sok! and then it turned out that she is the fake junior. the hosts are very humourous and not forgetting kai wen's trademark move.and of course the dinner wasn't that nice so i went to eat mac with the rest after the whole thing and i reached home at midnight and surprisingly my mum didn't call. must still try to sleep early and finish my homework tomorrow! i don't want a scolding. YO MAMMA!

sharonhoped.
1:04 AM

4 hours break between Lcomm and macecon is a dumb. actually 3 hours is already long and Lcomm tutor still release us 1 hour earlier. but then again she is the type that would release us the moment we finish our stuff and end her little debriefing. jupiter's sandwich should be called a burger instead. was lucky to see ghim hong there too becourse he can help me with economics but not lucky to see it there too. i can't blame that both of them are in the same class. anyways i can proudly say that i deleted it's number! i really hate group work because i would always be the one that is left out. i decided not to be depressed just because of how my classmates treat me. they are seriously not worth it. i tried to be nice and i get treated like bullshit. ARGH to all of you! school is already like shit and i can't even get a supportive family. got 'scolded' by my brother just because of his girlfriend. this is dumb ok. didn't really know what was said between my mum and my brother because i was just busy crying quietly but i got a strong feeling that my mum will just side with him. i don't know what will happen tomorrow but looking back at what happened so far i don't think anything good will happen.

sharonhoped.
9:11 PM

was late for macroecons lecture and the lecturer was like so fierce. decided to join both dance and cheerleading so i won't think about my class anymore. csa was like another hour of myself not understanding what i was doing. should stop hanging out with ghim hong from now onwards. got pinched by him until i got a blue black. he's secretly sick. cheerleading was fun overall except when they part i fell on the ground flat on my face and hitted my head. my base was just too tall and too strong that even when i sat on him i'm afraid. took 72 home and somehow i fell asleep and when i woke up i was at the interchange already. this is the most lucky thing that will happen to me. so much to do and so little time. i'm going to die for tutorials tomorrow.

sharonhoped.
11:54 PM

if i'm born skinny or pretty i think i would have a much better life in school. wasn't late for OB tutorial but i was marked absent becourse i was late for more than 15 mintues. was damn pissed the whole day. my class is like one big group of people that doesn't want to include me. they really make me feel like quitting school. at first i thought i was just being negative but now i really feel that they are like my secondary school 'friends'. i just hope that i will be busy with cca so that i won't bother about class.

sharonhoped.
8:50 PM

only slept for 4 hours because i dare not not do ms tay's tutorials so i was up whole night researching on all 9 countries in the paper. i seriously saw quite a few of my secondary school friends nearly the whole day. anyways went to the library with adriel and i was supposed to do my homework which i did but i ended up not bothering about the project. was kinda in a rush this morning so when i packed my shoe bag i didn't include a pair of socks. luckily the bookshop sold socks. training was tiring but i like the part when our legs got stretched with the help of a partner. it has been years since i did these dance warm ups. even though adriel engaged in projection and brought green tea for me, i can finish the whole bottle during cheer practice. rechecked the noticeboard for dance and i found out that overall i need to pay $50 for lessons and orientation and its on saturday.i seriously don't know what i have gotten myself into. the chances of my manager letting me not work on two saturdays when he already allowed me to just come on saturdays for the whole week is very slim. but the problem is i don't even know whether to join or not.

sharonhoped.
12:50 AM

i can't believe that in this world there are people like that. made me so pissed. can't you just work with everyone. why must you choose the people you work with? forgot about the dumb stuff and talk about happy ones. celebrated nadia's birthday in engineering school(i don't know why) and sang the birthday song quite a few times before singing the serious one. checked the dance noticeboard after LSM and i was so surprised that i can get in. i think only 29 out of 100 got in and i'm the lucky one without skill. now i got cheer on tuesday dance on wednesday and cheer again on thursday. after school went to mediacorp to watch the wei wo du zun and F1 the person we are supporting won. was supposed to do my LSM tutorial otherwise ms tay will throw me out of class. i'm not kidding, i'm really afraid of her.

took this during OB lecture about perception. can you see an old man or a couple kissing?

sharonhoped.
12:17 AM

there's pool today which is a good thing until the lesson started. i suck at screwback because i did a jump shot at first which is not suppose to happen then after that the ball refuse to roll back. anyways went home and i slept on the bus again. ever since school started i don't even get enough sleep because i was into msn as there were people chatting with me but now no one talks to me i still have my homework to worry about. was supposed to do OB and LSM tutorials but i sort of slacked and decided to watch dvds. hope that ms tay don't throw me out of class.

sharonhoped.
9:00 PM

life is like crap now. i don't want want to be positive and nice to people anymore. what's the point of being nice and people treat you like you are not even there. i don't even bother if people say i'm emoing or depressed or whatever because this is what i chose to be. i don't see any reason to be friendly and trusting towards others. afterall people just look at looks. the popular can just be more popular and the not popular be even more not popular. who cares.

sharonhoped.
11:19 PM

even though we were dismissed 30 minutes earlier from L comm i still don't really like the subject. copied a tiny bit of economics homework and i got laughed at because i couldn't copy the work properly. at least ping xuan is nice enough to explain to me in B4 english. had a small sgss gathering at jupiter then went to do apel survey. economics is so boring i really felt like sleeping in class. now i know why cheerleaders are skinny or slim. the things i go today like running and it's only 2 rounds and i can't even say no to a handstand. but overall i can still take the training so long as they do not increase the number rapidly. only kelvin remembered me how sad. seriously my poly life is not much of a difference from secondary school life. when i say life i mean life. i'm so sick of being the invisible girl in school and why are skinny and pretty girls the popular ones? i hate people who can't treat everyone equally and i'm not talking about myself. i try to be nice and friendly and this is what i get from them. they are making it hard for me to be friends with them. or maybe i should just pretend that they never exist or something.

sharonhoped.
11:43 PM

i rather go to school everyday than the e-learning thing. i don't even know what i'm supposed to do with those pieces of paper. i really really hate tutorials. the teacher is like going so fast and i think i'm the slowest student in my class. went out with melvin and he totally demoralised me when i decided to love my height. i still don't dare to touch animals even though i find puppie cute. tomorrow still have some dumb dumb race and i'm not prepared!

sharonhoped.
10:43 PM

the whole class was lost just finding OB container classroom. the last time i stepped in a container classroom is during my sunday school days. and the aircon was really cold and mr nah still put our pictures for everyone to see! how can he. i seriously am going to get a new bag. num bag is too heavy for me. just found out that we are not supposed to wear tank tops shorts mini skirts slippers and all that stuff worse than that. but it's like nobody cares. L comm is so confusing and she just like dump everything to us but other groups can understand except for me. maybe u should pay more attention to class. dance audition is so stressing and it made me feel like backing out. when we were told that we had to freestyle even only for 2 eights i'm like dead i will never get in now. doesn't matter i still got other cca. meeting with julius was cancelled because he was busy and will still be busy tomorrow. finally found someone to eat dinner with but i sort of regretted it because it wasn't really worth it. after all i can do without dinner. not going to be so quick to make a decision from now on.

sharonhoped.
3:04 AM

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sharon
child of God
JAEL and AAR
27 may 1991
seventeen
temasek poly
diploma in law and management
get her TOM KAULITZ

music
dance
elmo
cookies
orange
books
=D

pink
smokers
D=

good grades for O level
get into law and management
a laptop
dye my hair
a nice hairstyle
a complete makeover
gave up on thisto grow taller
a complete set of make-up
newurbanmale bag
digital camera
new nice and practical bag

JAEL
charlotte
germaine
justin
samuel
yong chian

camps
albert
atiqah
charmaine
cruyff
eugenie
fabian
farris
kelvin
salina

friends
dorothy
hao ran
hui min

hougang secondary
afidah
ann
bevely
bi xia
charmaine
chinese dance
chun rong
chu qiao
estelle
ghim hong
huda
jaclyn
jermaine
joel
june
karen
kelin
shermaine
shuhadah
theendy
yan qi
yi rui
zi qian

temasek poly
adriel
ashrina
dana
hafiz
jasmine chye
jeevan
jonas
joshua
june
kris
kuan teng
mark
nicholette
shaun
wei jie

Blazers
blazers
bryan
candy
charyl
cheryl
fiona
geok ghee
jasmine neo
justin
ken
michelle
pearl an
si min
stephanie
terence
wei hoe

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a proper twist
180 split
front split
scorpion both legs without support
bridge without support
handstand without support
front & back walk
front & back flip